What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know goes away
In the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt


It's over. Officially and probably for a longer time. I've been hurt way too damn much and I don't think I deserve that. I have so much fucking love to give and it was wasted. Wasted and stepped on and stomped so no one gets it.
All I have left is to become cold. Become cold and not feel anything anymore. You all may say I should rise from the ashes like a mighty phoenix, but my wings are broken. I got nothing.
I don't believe in a god of any kind. Many have stripped my love away in that form too. Don't pray for me because it's useless. Energy wasted when it could be put to something more productive.

I had hopes, dreams and a life planned once again only to have it obliterated forever. What did I do wrong?

I cared.

That's it. You can ask him and he'll say it's the truth. It's not some poetic shit- this happens to me often. I care and then when I just want a little care back I get shit. And don't you dare call me sensitive, what I expected was not the whole world, I expected little from many that just were too damn lazy, disrespectful and uncaring to give it. I keep setting myself up with those people- why?
I'm an idiot.

Goodnight and goodbye. I'm so tired.

~FM